Discipline needed? but i feel comfortable

Feeling despair of my ULTRA CLEAN landlord lady...When you think you already do your best to keep clean and still hearing complaints, this is so helpless except saying " I will keep it cleaner next time"

Maybe I have not been trained to be a really clean and tidy person, as long as it is not too messy that's fine. Also maybe there was KAKAK helping me to tidy so I was spoiled. Help, i am so emotionally stressed up. Need to make sure no marks on the table top, no pot or cover on the table, must clean and dry the dishes after wash, must mop the floor (sweep is not enough), must spray the toilet shower screen every time after shower, must not sleep with light on...omg..Help, at this point I just miss home so much!

sometimes I really doubt at my own attitude. Why am I so careless, I thought that I have checked, double checked, triple checked?? Why errors still occur? I do not know what do I want. I thought that I am capable but when I ask myself what can you do and how can you success, I cant think of a definite answer.

4 years ago I came to pharmacy, actually I did not seriously thought of it before deciding the course. It is not bad, stable income, stable job. But But But...where is my PASSION? Enthusiasm??? What if I went into Mass Communication 4 years back? I always dream myself to be an artist, and when I was in high school my friends told me that I will be an outstanding artist. hahahaha...I wish I could. My creativity, speaking skill, and acting skill seem to have buried in my way to pharmacy.

I remember my psychology teacher gave me a career test, said I could go to the advertising line, public relation or similar area. Months later after I entered the university I went back to visit her telling her that I have chosen pharmacy, then she said I need to work harder because it is tough for my personality. I told her, I think we can train ourselves to like something. Eventually I feel that yes, you can adapt but that is not you, your potential is not there thus it is a lot difficult to see you glowing with success in that area.

I believe that studying a degree is not so much about the knowledge, yes you gain the basic knowledge but you will forget. One thing it definitely does is it TRANSFORM you to be a member with the quality needed for that profession, while you may loose your original quality......

tired, need a break for right direction

This is the 6th week of my pre reg, actually I did not find myself learning alot except from dispensing.

Why have I chosen pharmacy and do I really like being a pharmacist?

I feel that UK is not the place for me and there is a call for going home. Therefore I am considering of going back to my hometown and seek for the meaning of life that I am pursuing.