feeling unwell

It has been such a long time that I didn't come to my blog.

Nottingham has started to get colder by each day, especially colder when I sat down in front of my study table for some times. The coldness had recently weaken my body immune system. I feel so sick now with nasal fluid streaming down like an open tap.

Actually being sick physically is still bearable. What I feel hard and helpless is the love sick. Why do we have to separate again by the geography and time zone? I am really unready for it at all. It is just 1 month after we apart but I have felt it so unbearable. I miss you bie. I want to go back to be with you! Ironically I cant! due to the restrictive bond to my study..

Bie I really miss you so much! so much! I don't want the life of saying good night to you when my side is still early evening; nor spending lonely nights that I cant contact you at all on my own (because you are sleeping).

I really cant imagine what will things be after all... Can we survive through the challenge again?

What will be filled in our 'memory break'?

I love you bie...